I hear all the time how NICE it is what I do. Non-profit work. Working with the poor, castaways, giving to those less fortunate… and yes, on the surface it is really NICE.
But everyone knows there’s always two sides to each coin. And it’s not always NICE. It’s more than often EXHAUSTING!
Questioning every day whether or not you’re actually making a difference in a life?
Wondering what you’ve truly accomplished after 12 years of giving yourself to others?
Investing emotionally, physically, spiritually to the masses, only to come home alone each night.
To give your all, but receive little in return.
To feel completely broken and lonely more than once.
Friends constantly coming and going, family growing up without you, weddings, births, deaths… all of which you are absent.
Having your heart simultaneously split into pieces around the world.
Sounds pretty NICE, eh?!?
Yet, this is the life I CHOSE. No one forced me into it. I could walk away at any moment, yet I choose stay. Because within the pains comes the blessings… and I’ve been blessed beyond measure these past 12 years.
But there are just days when exhaustion trumps NICE…
And Today is one of those days.
NICE isn’t always so glamorous…. but on any given day, it’s still pretty nice.